The Black Hole

Hi everyone! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin if I have missed wishing you. Hope you have been enjoying raya-ing with your loved ones as much as I have.

As my tummy has remained small, I have been able to wear most of my existing baju kurungs this year. No sense wasting money on new clothes, I thought. However, it has been proven that I might have been a tad optimistic this time.

This pregnancy has been different from the first. Whereas in the first I gained 18 kgs, this time my aim is just 9-10 kgs. And so far, I have been on track: 3kgs in 6 months. Not bad, I thought. Anyway, this wee one has made it easier for me cos she's been refusing a lot of food. Not that I still throw up or anything, but I have extremely little appetite. Even when breaking fast, I sometimes have to force myself to eat something more substantial.

But something unexpected happened on the first day of Raya. I just couldn't and wouldn't stop eating. At almost all the 7 houses on that first day, I ate everything and then some more. I could feel my belly bursting and my clothes getting very much tighter at each house but yet, my taste buds were screaming MORE, MORE, MORE! Attempts to curb the raging appetite was futile. Even though I told hubby to make me stop eating at each house, I cunningly hid my food quest from him so that he won't have a chance to stop me before it's too late..Hahaha.

My mum who saw me first thing in the morning and last at night can attest to the increase in the bulge of my tummy over the course of the day, I'm not kidding you. I was also silly enough to think that the tummy would reduce in size by the next day, but whaddya know, the wee one has decided to keep all that food in with her. I think she may just have doubled in size just on that day.

So I'm now looking miserably in the mirror because I have gone from looking barely pregnant to looking fairly pregnant. I just hope that I won't gain too much weight this time around.

P.s. Despite admonitions to myself, my food quest is still going strong. Help!