Obviously, I'm not so good as doing so many things all at the same time. As you can see, once I started working, I am enveloped in the world of this person called a teacher and suddenly, all other aspects of my life is taken away from underneath my feet.
I stopped blogging, stopped talking to people outside of my immediate vicinity, attended very much less events such as weddings, have not seen my cutie of a girlfriend after she has given birth, and the worse of all I think is that I had to sacrifice a lot of time with my family, husband and children, even after work hours that goes really late into the night and definitely on weekends.
I know that many people in this profession can juggle all these things simultaneously. But not me. A great amount of guilt and regret wash over me when the above things happen. I have realised that I am first, a mother. Vanessa was right even though I didn't believe her at first. I have changed that moment when the first sign of life left my body and entered the world. It has left me in a constant search of a balance between my responsibility as a mother and an employee.
And I'm still searching. Only God knows His plans for me. Regardless, on my deathbed, I want to be sure that my children have become the best of persons in this world and hereafter that they can become. Then, I know that I'll have done my work.
3 comments:
in this world, there'll be lots of regrets..but its up to us to make the best of it..sure, i regretted making a lot of moves but at the same time, i understood many other things after making such moves.. i hope u do too.. i know its hard taking time away from family.. only you know what's best, so u be ur own judge. if its good, it Will be good.. take care dear cuzzie..
thanks..it means a lot :) Happy Mummy's Day!
Wow, you still remember what I said! I just came back to work and I am also struggling to balance both!
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